Marmiteboy - Urbane Warrior.

Monday, November 28, 2005

There's No Other Way.

I have come to a decision for the sake of my health and my sanity. At the current time I cannot do my current job without seriously fucking up my head. I had a chat with my boss today, as he wanted to know how I got on at the medical on Friday. I have decided it is best if I move on. So I am going to look for a transfer back to Southend. I'm lucky that I have got the support of my manager in this. He has had severe stress in the past (although not depression) so he is empathetic as a result. It will mean a bit of a drop in salary, but my health is more important than a couple of grand a year. Anyway it won't be so bad as I won't have to fork out for travel up to London three times a week.

This is something I should have done ages ago but I kept convincing myself that I was going to be alright in a couple of days and my concentration levels were going to be miraculously restored. This hasn't happened and I don't think it will for a bit, so this is the best option. It might not stop the anxiety but it will be one thing less to fret about.

On another note, I am going to my first ever Yoga class tomorrow. I have been thinking of trying yoga for ages but didn't really want to go on my own. Anyway my mate Jim wants to try it too so we've found a class nearby that specialises in beginners and intermediates, so we're going to give it a go tomorrow night. I have spoken to several people, including my sister, who have found it very beneficial in relaxing the mind and body. It's worth a try. It would be nice to relax for once.


Blogger Charlesdawson said...

Good for you, Marmite. I hope your transfer comes up soon. You probably feel better just for having made the decision and taken back some control.

BTW, have you ever considered that maybe some of those high-flying colleagues of yours are equally stressed underneath? We all put a face on, and it needn't be just you that finds things too much.

Good luck with the yoga!

10:31 am

Blogger marmiteboy said...

Hi Charles,

I imagine that they are stressed. I'v eno doubt about that. What they are though is much more adept at the job than I am. It's not so easy to hide that.

Hoping the yoga helps a bit. I won't be going in for standing on me head though ;-)

11:01 am

Blogger The Goldfish said...

Marmite, I think that's really great news - and so well done of you to bite the bullet and ask. As Charles says, you hopefully feel some of the pressure lifting already.

Good luck with the yoga - I have found it helpful myself, though do make sure you keep within your physical limitations and ensure your tutor knows what they are before you start.

3:15 pm

Blogger w1ld child said...

Good luck with the transfer and good luck with the yoga. I've considered doing it myself but like you don't want to go on my own.

5:35 pm

Blogger Gimpy Mumpy said...

Congrats on talking things through with your boss. I'm glad he was the understanding sort.

Yoga is really wonderful, so long as you have a good instructor who fully understands any physical restrictions/needs you may have. My mom is an a teacher of multiple forms of yoga and although I have not been able to participate in classes for some time now I really find it beneficial in many ways, physical, mental and spiritual. Also as someone with asthma yoga taught me the proper way to breath which has been a huge help over the years.
hope you have a great time :)

7:53 pm

Blogger marmiteboy said...

Thanks folks, your support means a lot to me and it's really appreciated.

Well I'm a bit sore today after my yoga class but I do now know what postions I can't do.I probaly put a little too much strain in my leg at times last night.

The relaxation/meditation techniquies were good though and I actually found myself relaxing for about 2 minutes, which is a rare thing. Hopefully with practice I can increase this to maybe even three minutes ;-)

8:20 am


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