There's No Other Way.
I have come to a decision for the sake of my health and my sanity. At the current time I cannot do my current job without seriously fucking up my head. I had a chat with my boss today, as he wanted to know how I got on at the medical on Friday. I have decided it is best if I move on. So I am going to look for a transfer back to Southend. I'm lucky that I have got the support of my manager in this. He has had severe stress in the past (although not depression) so he is empathetic as a result. It will mean a bit of a drop in salary, but my health is more important than a couple of grand a year. Anyway it won't be so bad as I won't have to fork out for travel up to London three times a week.
This is something I should have done ages ago but I kept convincing myself that I was going to be alright in a couple of days and my concentration levels were going to be miraculously restored. This hasn't happened and I don't think it will for a bit, so this is the best option. It might not stop the anxiety but it will be one thing less to fret about.
On another note, I am going to my first ever Yoga class tomorrow. I have been thinking of trying yoga for ages but didn't really want to go on my own. Anyway my mate Jim wants to try it too so we've found a class nearby that specialises in beginners and intermediates, so we're going to give it a go tomorrow night. I have spoken to several people, including my sister, who have found it very beneficial in relaxing the mind and body. It's worth a try. It would be nice to relax for once.
posted by marmiteboy at 9:04 pm
3 Comments:
Hi Charles,
I imagine that they are stressed. I'v eno doubt about that. What they are though is much more adept at the job than I am. It's not so easy to hide that.
Hoping the yoga helps a bit. I won't be going in for standing on me head though ;-)
11:01 am
Marmite, I think that's really great news - and so well done of you to bite the bullet and ask. As Charles says, you hopefully feel some of the pressure lifting already.
Good luck with the yoga - I have found it helpful myself, though do make sure you keep within your physical limitations and ensure your tutor knows what they are before you start.
3:15 pm
Thanks folks, your support means a lot to me and it's really appreciated.
Well I'm a bit sore today after my yoga class but I do now know what postions I can't do.I probaly put a little too much strain in my leg at times last night.
The relaxation/meditation techniquies were good though and I actually found myself relaxing for about 2 minutes, which is a rare thing. Hopefully with practice I can increase this to maybe even three minutes ;-)
8:20 am
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